Bah!

So tomorrow is our first weigh-in since starting this "Biggest Loser" contest.  I'm feeling a bit discouraged because Jillian hasn't delivered the way I was hoping she would. Every night (aside from my nights off) I would sweat and groan and "mormon-curse" while doing her routines.  I would concentrate on form and getting it done right so that I wouldn't be cheating myself.
All for what?
A lousy half a pound, that's what!!!  My wallet is depleted because of all the healthy stuff in my cupboards now, my legs are still a little sore and I'm about to pull out all of my hair because I haven't made any progress.
Ooooh, that's right, I HAVE made progress.  Some would say, "But it's better to lose a half of a pound than to gain, right?"
To them I say, "Ppppbbbbtttt!"  (That's me imitating Grand Duchess spitting with her tongue out.)
Needless to say I'm going to go BACK to my old routine of running every night instead of circuit training with Jillian.  When I was running and eating right I was losing a pound a day.  A POUND A DAY PEOPLE!!!
Some would also ask, "Why are you making such a big deal about this?"
And to them I say, "The pot is up to $580.  I want to win it!"  But if I can't figure out a program that works for me, I'm going to continue to be discouraged.  I miss my comfort foods of clam chowder, homemade bread, and baking yummy desserts to enjoy with my kiddos.  I miss it A LOT!!!
So needless to say, I'm a little cranky right now.
I guess I should give Jillian a little credit.  Since starting her program I have lost around my waist, hips and thighs.  My muscles are more toned and my clothes are starting to become baggy.  But this contest is not about sizes lost.  It's about weight percentages.  And if I maintain my weight of 154 (There, you happy I told you?), I won't win the money at the end.  And I REALLY want that money at the end.
So I have 5 weeks to go and I need a renewed sense of determination.
BAH!