Spiritual Thought for Sunday

Today was a crazy Sunday to say the least. Even though I can't fast, I had a spirit of fasting in my heart. I fasted for unity in my ward (which coincidentally, we were repremanded for in an impromptu ward counsel after church). I felt my post about our ward Halloween party had helped to cause some contention between some of us sisters, and I am deeply sorry for that. I am in the process of apologizing to those who I felt I had injured, and if I HAVE injured anyone else, and not known it - I am truly sorry. That was not the intent of my post - which is why it has been removed from the blog.

Anyhow, I wanted the Spirit with me today so that I could apologize with a sincere heart - and I recieved that Spirit. I am grateful for that.

As I was reading my scriptures this morning, I was still debating on what my fast should be geared toward today. Mr. Fantastic was fasting that Grammy & Papa would be able to sell their house quickly. I'm thinking that Popeye fasted about something, but he won't tell me what. So, while I was reading, is when it hit me.

I was reading in Mosiah. I can't even recall the chapter (28 maybe?). But at the beginning of the chapter it talks about how the Church is under persecution and Alma goes to King Mosiah & asks for help in getting the Church more unified. So Mosiah tells the persecutors to knock it off and the Church begins to become unified and prospers in the land again. Then Alma's son, Alma the Younger, along with 4 of King Mosiah's sons head out into the land and start telling falsehoods and stirring the pot again. So an angel comes down, reprimands them and Alma the Younger is unable to talk or move his limbs for a few days as a result of it. When he "comes to", he has had a change of heart (along with his buddies) and they head out into the land to rectify the wrongs they made. It doesn't say they went to preach the gospel, it says they went and told the people they were wrong.

And that's when I knew that I had to apologize to 'President' and her counselors and also to Sherrie and a few others that I felt I had seriously wronged. I didn't know that so many people here in my little town read my blog & I felt that my blog post only helped to stir the pot of contention instead of building unity in our little ward. I also realized that I couldn't just go up to the pulpit in fast and testimony meeting to make a general "I'm sorry speech" and call it good. And the opportunity for me to make that speech (seriously a scapegoat for me) in Relief Society's testimony time was taken from me, too. Heavenly Father was teaching me a lesson. He wanted me to humble myself and say I'm sorry more than once. And so I did.

And I feel better. I have one more person to apologize to, that is our bishop. I tried to get into his office today to say it, but I was unable to - so I have to wait until Tuesday evening to do that.

But I'm sorry. And as much as I feel that my blog is an outlet for me to express my opinions and feelings, I still need to keep it in the spirit of unity and building Heavenly Father's kingdom. So this is what I will try to do from now on.

I really wanted to post about my relief society lesson this afternoon - because it was really good & I wrote down a lot of good comments from it - I felt that I should write this post first. I will save my insights into Family Finances for another day.